Ugh. It just keeps getting worse as it goes on. Is there a hole I can crawl into?
Cars are broken down, husband tries to fix them but doesn't, then doesn't mention to me that I am without a car, I tell mom, "No thanks, we don't need to borrow the car." She goes off to paint in a church building that doesn't get reception on her phone.
I print all the paypal labels and start to look for the keys, shoot, Mike must have them. I will get the kids ready and walk down to the mail drop box, it's only 110 degrees. The packages do not fit in the drop box, they need to be taken to the post office which is too far away to walk to.
But before we get back up to the house, my daughter who is trying to be like mom and carry a mail bag stuffed full of things she is "delivering" bends over to pick up trash, jumps in surprise when I exclaim loudly "NO!" spills her mail bag of toys down the hill. I go running after the various cheap toys that she is crying over, hurt my foot again and look up in time to see a car turn wildly into our subdivision nearly missing the hysterical 4 yr. old, sobbing on the side of the street.
We get inside, both of us a wreck. My husband calls, tells me the landlady has lost the info needed from the state to keep us from being evicted, gives me the info to give to her, THEN decides to communicate about the state of the cars, with the information that he cannot get home until after 5 pm.
I now need to void all the labels, contact the customers that I gave my word to that I would be shipping out on Monday and let them know of the delay.
As I am doing this I receive news, through email that the book deal I was offered has been canceled.
This was the thing that kept me going, "I'm going to be published!" who cares that sales from etsy have dropped to less then half of what they were, wholesale and consignment orders are at a stand still, there is no money to advertise and a general overall lack of creativity!?! I was going to be an author.
Sadness overwhelms me.
I cannot find comfort in food because I have started to eat healthy and there isn't a scrap of chocolate in the house or nearby vicinity.
Good God. My self esteem has taken a beating today.