You know what I am about. What I have always been about.
See my labels word cloud down there on the side bar? ---------------->
The largest label is FAMILY.
What do I do now?
Who do I love?
Who do my kids look up to?
How will I ever feel complete again?
I'm so sorry for turning what was once an inspirational blog full of encouragement, ideas and lovely visuals into sordidness.
Reading words like "Penis" and "Vagina" are not why you come here and I am really embarrassed.
If I could explain that I thought he was saying his sweet words to me, about a picture of me before I realized he was sending them to her, and that in spite of what he has done, I felt HOPE. As if he wanted me again and was reaching out to me. Then to see it was not meant for me but someone else, it was devastation all over again. And the pain of rejection came rushing back anew.
It caused a character defect of hate and jealousy.
I know time will help this confusion. I know my friends are rallying around me.
I know I will smile and laugh with my children again.
I know I will create again.
Thank you for understanding and forgiving me.
Much Love & Respect,